12 November 2020

 

I have to consider where I am at, five weeks since my dear mother past away... What are my priorities for the re-direction of my life. Do I try to pick up the shattered pieces? Or, leave the void and refocus to create a new life?

I am slowly coming to terms with the emptiness, the end of my purpose of care and the long road, that now stretches out, with plenty time to begin occupying... Could be an overwhelming and insurmountable peak or cavernous precipice, from which to haul myself.

Now I am naturally a happy chap who thrives on fun and laughter. So, when, I was most kindly invited, soon after my dear mother passed away, to join cousins from my favourite part of the island, for a welcome burst of light and hope, over the last two weekends. I jumped at these opportunities to be away from what could have been dark and gloomy times. The first event was a wonderful, Halloween, Socially Distanced, Wedding, where I met friends and relatives and experienced a beautiful and unique event. Thank you Patti and Alex XX.

The second was a full weekend away from everything. To my beloved Atlantic horizon of Dalmore, with my cousin Neen. I was incredibly well looked after, pampered indeed, and I absolutely loved the attention I was given! We put the whole Universe to right around a peat fire. How good is that! The Atlantic air helped me to catch up on sleep and I was rejuvenated and revitalized, enough to deal with all the activities and chores of the days ahead. Thank you Neen X.

So, I have managed to get on with my personal goals for this week. A special week in historical terms.

Monday 9 November 2020, commemorated the 82nd anniversary of Kristallnacht - the night of the broken, or shattered glass, the awful moment when the Jews of Europe were given the most evil forewarning of what was to come...

Wednesday 11 November 2020, Remembrance Day for ALL global conflicts, wars and the assault on humanity generally.

We must remember and reflect, the suffering in the wider world and the vulnerability of humanity to be reduced by evil forces... We must do everything we can to oppose it and support the bravery that fights against it. We must always remember the lives that have been lost...

On a personal note, I am such a truly lucky man to have been so kindly thought of and included in ways which stole me away from my sadness, these past two weekends. I feel I am fortunate to have such special and wonderful friends and relatives who are watching out for me, at this time... What can I say... Love is a truly powerful force in our world, may it prevail always.

A few thoughts, generated last weekend, while aware of the rolling waves breaking the sharp Atlantic horizon. KB